At first I thought there were purely correlated, but the more time I gave it there might actually be some causality in there.
Monday, November 28, 2011
I have a funny propensity to get overly passionate about things way too quickly while at the same time keeping 99% of these feelings hidden. This suppression seems to be a product of overcompensating for what appears to be a personal deviation from the overall accepted norm. For example, I had a dream last night that my new years eve party was going on and silly things were going wrong etc. It's only a party. I get way too involved to the point where it is all I wrap my brain around and what I think about all day. This pattern seems to repeat itself with video games, art projects, women etc. Ironically, I also have an amazing ability to drop things cold turkey and not blink an eye as well. I wonder if this stems from some sort of uncommon detachment. One would imagine that such an addictive and singularly consuming personality would lead towards intense withdrawal, but somehow I didn't get dealt that card. I think I need to shy away from rearranging my hand and really begin to focus on playing it optimally.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
I don't know how to initiate a first kiss with a girl, it's pathetic. During my 28 years on this planet I have kissed 6 women. 2 of those were initiated by the other sex. 1 was the result of countless hours of anxiety over my first kiss. And the other three were heavily induced by alcohol. It really makes me feel like a worthless man. It's strange how extremely difficult the first one can be and then the next thousand can be so effortlessly beautiful and naturally expressive. I need help.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
I have been having some interesting results; probably past the line of blogable content. I need to take some time to think about what I should publish. I have also been discussing new tactics for life with good friends, which is always a pleasure. On a lighter note, this seems to be a strange position by dog likes to chill in.