I Hate My Job

Throwback

2012-01-12T02:33:00.003-05:00

I love that the main character of Breaking Bad drives this:

Rant

2012-01-12T02:18:00.004-05:00

It's kind of shocking how strong the correlation between the health of one's regular life directly influences one's ability to play high level poker. Sometimes it feels as if focusing on physical and mental fitness is more beneficial than reviewing hand histories and crunching math on particular situations. Obviously the ultimate situation is some balanced mix. I constantly find myself pushing limits needlessly only to continually conclude that moderation is optimal. I spend a lot of time lately thinking about Nash Equilibria. I find it a bit peculiar that I've been such a gamer and math nerd for so long and it wasn't until my twenty eighth year on this planet that I stumbled upon such an interesting tool. I probably should read more books.

Collision

2012-01-06T11:04:00.001-05:00

Some Pics from the Big Night

2012-01-03T17:10:00.005-05:00

NYE 2011/2012

2012-01-02T00:36:00.002-05:00

Around Town

2011-12-16T02:14:00.005-05:00

For some reason this mural struck a chord with me today:

HH

2011-12-15T15:14:00.000-05:00

Seat 3 is the button

Seat 2: a5sassin ( $1024.50 USD )

Seat 3: AndreVillasBoas ( $1383.41 USD )

Seat 5: gamblegambel ( $3727.09 USD )

Seat 6: allinBigUnit4 ( $1000.00 USD )

gamblegambel posts small blind [$5.00 USD].

a5sassin posts big blind [$10.00 USD].

** Dealing down cards **

Dealt to gamblegambel [ Tc 8c ]

AndreVillasBoas raises [$20.00 USD]

gamblegambel raises [$65.00 USD]

a5sassin raises [$166.66 USD]

AndreVillasBoas folds

gamblegambel calls [$106.66 USD]

** Dealing Flop ** [ 5s, Kh, 8d ]

gamblegambel checks

a5sassin bets [$186.66 USD]

gamblegambel calls [$186.66 USD]

** Dealing Turn ** [ 6h ]

gamblegambel checks

a5sassin bets [$661.18 USD]

gamblegambel calls [$661.18 USD]

a5sassin shows [Jh, Ac ]

gamblegambel shows [Tc, 8c ]

** Dealing River ** [ 2c ]

gamblegambel wins $2068.00 USD from main pot

I Hate My Job Comic Strip

2011-12-14T11:21:00.001-05:00

Wise Words from Beavis

2011-12-13T00:12:00.003-05:00

"If you're not a cartoon, stove gas will kill you."

To Fire or Not to Fire

2011-12-10T19:01:00.004-05:00

Seat 1: gamblegambel ( $4111.04 USD )

Seat 3: bigguylegend22 ( $2773.33 USD )

Seat 4: taongo ( $6014.50 USD )

Seat 5: leptitfayth ( $2000.00 USD )

Seat 6: rohass ( $1033.00 USD )

bigguylegend22 posts small blind [$10.00 USD].

taongo posts big blind [$20.00 USD].

** Dealing down cards **

Dealt to gamblegambel [ 9c Kd ]

leptitfayth folds

rohass folds

gamblegambel raises [$40.00 USD]

bigguylegend22 folds

taongo calls [$20.00 USD]

** Dealing Flop ** [ Qc, 6h, 4s ]

taongo checks

gamblegambel bets [$60.00 USD]

taongo calls [$60.00 USD]

** Dealing Turn ** [ Js ]

taongo checks

gamblegambel bets [$150.00 USD]

taongo calls [$150.00 USD]

** Dealing River ** [ 2h ]

So this is a very common situation that arises in many different forms in poker; an opponent has called two bets oop on a dry board and the river bricks. So math and game theory would tell us that the proportion in which one should bluff here should be directly relative to your bet size. To put it most simply, it you bet pot on the river here you should be bluffing 33% of the time to be perfectly balanced. That in itself can be a tricky thing to obtain precisely. But the beautiful thing about poker is that there are many other variables that shift this natural Nash Equilibrium all over the map: psychology, history, player tendencies, timing, current emotional states etc. As an avid gamer there is almost nothing more mentally stimulating than discussing and analyzing the endless possibilities.

Wise Words from Beavis

2011-12-08T13:06:00.003-05:00

“I was thinking, they're going to make Sex and the City 3. So why not make it good?”

Analogous

2011-12-08T13:03:00.002-05:00

The end of the republican primary is just like the end of a game of a Catan game. You want to be near the lead, but you don't actually want to be barely in first place with your head on the chopping block.

In Case You Were Wondering

2011-12-07T15:26:00.002-05:00

24 Sides for Me

2011-11-30T03:01:00.005-05:00

At first I thought there were purely correlated, but the more time I gave it there might actually be some causality in there.

Trying to Sort Things Out

2011-11-28T02:03:00.003-05:00

I have a funny propensity to get overly passionate about things way too quickly while at the same time keeping 99% of these feelings hidden. This suppression seems to be a product of overcompensating for what appears to be a personal deviation from the overall accepted norm. For example, I had a dream last night that my new years eve party was going on and silly things were going wrong etc. It's only a party. I get way too involved to the point where it is all I wrap my brain around and what I think about all day. This pattern seems to repeat itself with video games, art projects, women etc. Ironically, I also have an amazing ability to drop things cold turkey and not blink an eye as well. I wonder if this stems from some sort of uncommon detachment. One would imagine that such an addictive and singularly consuming personality would lead towards intense withdrawal, but somehow I didn't get dealt that card. I think I need to shy away from rearranging my hand and really begin to focus on playing it optimally.

Bright Note

2011-11-24T10:23:00.002-05:00

I finally settled on the spot for new years eve. I am super excited:

Failure

2011-11-24T02:05:00.003-05:00

I don't know how to initiate a first kiss with a girl, it's pathetic. During my 28 years on this planet I have kissed 6 women. 2 of those were initiated by the other sex. 1 was the result of countless hours of anxiety over my first kiss. And the other three were heavily induced by alcohol. It really makes me feel like a worthless man. It's strange how extremely difficult the first one can be and then the next thousand can be so effortlessly beautiful and naturally expressive. I need help.

NYE

2011-11-02T12:47:00.003-05:00

I have been scouting some locations for new years eve with my buddy. We are leaning towards throwing a warehouse party. Here are a couple of the spots we were thinking about:

A Week or So Later

2011-11-01T02:15:00.003-05:00

I have been having some interesting results; probably past the line of blogable content. I need to take some time to think about what I should publish. I have also been discussing new tactics for life with good friends, which is always a pleasure. On a lighter note, this seems to be a strange position by dog likes to chill in.

Experimentation

2011-10-25T00:00:00.003-05:00

Lately I have been really into trying out some interesting techniques for furthering myself. I have already mentioned the 10k steps a day and sit up/push up routine I have been doing. Which, by the way, has been having satisfactory results thus far. I have also recently been researching testosterone levels and enunciation betterment lately. I found a few studies that found this common peculiar trend among males. Apparently if you abstain from masturbation your testosterone levels will have a huge peak on day 6 and day 7 and then slowly return to normal:

So now I have put myself on a once a week masturbation schedule. It requires quite a bit of self discipline. Also I have been doing an enunciation exercise every night where I read two pages of my book out loud whilst holding a marker with my front teeth. It strengthens the tongue and jaw muscles and helps prevent mumbling, which I am quite susceptible too. I'll let you know how these two new experiments pan out.

2011-10-22T01:46:00.003-05:00

Honestly for a genius like me life is too easy, so I have to get piss drunk as often as possible so I can relate to the plight of the common man.

Me Me You Me

2011-10-21T01:05:00.004-05:00

I suck at falling asleep. I have insanely vivid memories of being a child of 8 or 9 and my parents giving me in depth coaching on how to go to bed at night. They would make me do jumping jacks and push ups right before bed. And once in bed then would try to give me exercises to help turn my brain off. It didn't work then and it doesn't work now. I've tried it all. I've read before bed. I've watched TV to fall asleep. I've done yoga and meditation and mind clearing exercises. It really is a sick curse. The average person falls asleep in 7 minutes. I would guess it takes me on average 53 minutes from eyes closed and head on the pillow before being asleep. Sometimes I can fall asleep in less than ten minutes. But more commonly it is a night like this in which it can take me hours to fall asleep. I think I am hyper sensitive to many things that would typically roll off most peoples' shoulders. It seems in direct contradiction to my typically existential personality. It's one of those peculiarly destructive tendencies that everyone has some advice on, but ultimately I think it just comes down to a simple realization that some of us are just flawed beings.

7 Million

2011-10-20T00:04:00.006-05:00

Wise Words from Cartman

2011-10-18T16:12:00.002-05:00

"This country was founded by some of the smartest thinkers the world has ever seen. And they knew one thing: that a truly great country can go to war, and at the same time, act like it doesn't want to. You people who are for the war, you need the protesters. Because they make the country look like it's made of sane, caring individuals. And you people who are anti-war, you need these flag-wavers, because, if our whole country was made up of nothing but soft pussy protesters, we'd get taken down in a second. That's why the founding fathers decided we should have both. It's called "having your cake and eating it too."

Flow Chart

2011-10-17T10:21:00.000-05:00

Graph

2011-10-16T21:24:00.001-05:00

2011-10-16T02:23:00.002-05:00

I have a disease and they don't know what to call it.

In Short

2011-10-12T00:27:00.004-05:00

I love movies. Believe it or not I had never stayed to see two movies back to back in a theater until last week when I saw Contagion and Drive. It was such a pleasant experience that I went for another DF this evening and caught Moneyball and 50/50. I am such a crybaby when it comes to sad movies. I was a virtual WW for the SH of the latter movie. I was wondering today what is it about someones personality that makes them a MCB. They say a dog accurately mimics the PTO, and I guess that makes sense since my dog is a mush. I'd bet most people wouldn't describe me as a TS, but I mostly blame that on my ND and EW I tend to put up. I've actually been in really HS ATW. I give credit to my new WP, DL, and OTF. So far I have taken 10,348 steps today. Typically BR crave depressed and sympathetic material in their daily reads, but since this site is typically full of such, I'd imagine y'all might appreciate the FBA.

2011-10-09T02:21:00.006-05:00

2011-10-05T23:16:00.012-05:00

I am a firm believe that more is less. My life in high school could be categorized into two sessions: football season and off season . I don't know how many people who read this are familiar with just how time consuming Georgia high school football is. We would have to go to school an hour early for work outs and stay for at least three hours after school for practice. When all was said and done I usually had less than ninety minutes to do any homework on most nights. The ironic thing was because I was so restricted I was extremely efficient with my spare time. When the season was over and I had all the time in the world I would do half the schoolwork I did previously. It was completely counter intuitive. Currently I have more free time than I have ever had in my life up until this point. It is attempting to drive me completely crazy. Recently I just instated some personal goals to retain some regiment. I am pretty fascinated with the Herschel Walker workout plan of just sit ups and push ups. I've adapted it into my own version. I will not let a day pass where I don't accomplish either 1000 push ups, 1500 sit ups, or 300 pull ups. I've also forced myself to take at least 10,000 steps everyday minimum [tracked via pedometer]. I've grown a little frumpy as of late so hopefully this will take care of that. I am kind of fascinated with the malleability of the human body. It's been exactly a months since I have played a hand of poker. Hopefully I will be ready to head to Canada by January.

Turmoil (The Maternal Sort)

2011-09-20T00:29:00.004-05:00

My mother has always been reservedly negative about my career choice. But since I've recently explained my plans for moving to Vancouver, she has expressed to me just how much she really hates what I've done with my life. She revealed how she felt poker has made me depressed, drink too much, lose all my girlfriends and now move away from my family*. It's one of the hardest things I've had to do as a son. Seeing the look of disappointment in your mother's eyes is rather soul crushing. I've had a countless number of people criticize me for playing poker for a living, but as an independent confident spirit it never really phased me. It's such a beautiful game and I love every minute I am fortunate enough to play it. But when your mother really thinks you are wasting your life it sucks. I still don't feel like I have much of a grasp on how a career really defines a person and to what degree. It's funny how often we fight our parents' wisdom and advice only to look back years later and see how wrong we really were. I am just not sure this is one of those spots.

*footnote: I was really only super down and out in early 2008 and it mostly stemmed from being single for 7 years and an internal turmoil resulting from such complete early independence in my adult life [just partially resulting from poker]. I've always loved alcohol since I had my first drink long before poker. It's in my blood. Going out and drinking with friends is one of my favorite social activities. I never turn to alcohol as a result of feeling depressed. I am aware of the dangers of it getting out of hand and spend considerable efforts maintaining it at a moderate level [45 drinks a month]. The relationship deal is tricky. It's pretty tough to pinpoint exactly the reasons my last two fell apart. Long story short I'd blame poker about 8%. I will not argue though that poker does tend to keep many ladies at bay. Sometimes for the better, but mostly to a disadvantage. My mother was right about poker being the direct cause of me moving away from my family, but jobs require this all the time. It is kind of unfair to blame such a flexible job for what will most likely be a short term leave.

Do Something

2011-09-13T00:20:00.002-05:00

So I have been pretty unhappy with the sedentary pace my life has been going the past few months. I was originally going to wait until the end of the year to move out of the country, but at this point the idea of leaving is very exciting. I am 95% sure I will be trying to move to Vancouver very soon. The only obstacle is if I can feasibly bring my dog really. Hopefully I can find someone to take care of him here for a while or get a pet friendly apt in Canada and drive up there. All the research I did pointed at having to do a 6 month tourist visa. After that I'll either have to manage a work visa somehow or marry someone up there. Also the likelihood of playing in US ought to be clearer by then. I can't wait to start making some money again and move on with my life.

Last One

2011-09-06T23:16:00.001-05:00

I am going to take a music and starcraft hiatus. I hope you like this last song I will be posting (Shafer did the beat):

Just Making Music These Days

2011-09-03T22:32:00.002-05:00

Two Other Songs I Have Been Working on

2011-09-02T20:39:00.002-05:00

An Original Tune

2011-08-30T18:30:00.001-05:00

Some Jazz Flute I Put Together

2011-08-30T00:35:00.001-05:00

2011-08-12T03:01:00.002-05:00

Things change. The adaptability of humans as people is so understated that sometimes we hardly realize how inconsistent our surroundings really are. I can remember back in 2006 when I was crushing Party Poker. My father would tell me about how I had such a good thing going and should play as much as possible. I would just laugh, play my 1.5 hours a day and shrug off his subtle wisdom. I sometimes daydream about some solar panel company coming to recruit me to help develop more efficient power cells. I'd like to think I am naturally talented at figuring things out, but ultimately I think it is more weighted towards an unhealthy addictive obsession. In college I remember feeling very unguided. I yearned for some higher up to just tell me what I needed to do and what to focus on. When the universe lacks any clear channel to flow down I get quite sidetracked with the trivial aspects of life. Last year when I was doing online dating I would skim over profiles of women and place high value on promising and valued professions. Lately whenever I am on there I get excited when I see unemployed, still finding my purpose in the world and other drifting feelings. Never finding a girl I can spend the rest of my life with is slowing replacing knee surgery as my number one fear. I feel my social skills are getting better. I used to sometimes joke how I was socially retard, primarily as a method of fishing for complements of proficiency. Luckily those days are in the rear view mirror. I have a few friends that have recently found long term relationships come to a close. Somehow I feel as if I have a deeper wisdom of life in those times. I really enjoy talking with those of broken heart and helping them focus on the positives whist remaining completely realistic. It seems like people are always moving back home, leaving for new experiences or jobs, traveling for unrequited love or finding solace on the open road. I manage to stay put. Uncomfortable settled in my home. I keep just doing what I enjoy. But things still keep changing.

About 9 Weeks of Mail

2011-08-10T14:26:00.002-05:00

More gambling junk mail than you can shake a stick at

Math on a Prop Bet

2011-07-25T23:59:00.004-05:00

So with my recent influx of even more free time lately I have been spending some evenings at a local 2/5 game. Some of the regulars there like to run a prop where you each just pick one or two cards and you just pay if they hit the flop with according bonuses for hitting multiples of your card(s). I always knew because of card removal (people are more likely to play a hand with an ace in it rather than a deuce) that taking low cards would be some sort of edge [the other players are not so keen on this], but never really had a hard figure in mind. I decided to crunch the actual numbers:

The odds an ace will come out if you flip over 3 random cards is 1 - (48/52 * 47/51 * 46/50), which is around 21.7%

Now since it is nearly impossible to prove what an average flop is in poker I will just have to use my database as a best guess. My full tilt db has 215k hands, so I figured that variance would be pretty low there. Of those hands 60,346 saw a flop. So if things ran true there should be around 13,118 flops with an ace. The actual number of ace high boards was 12,697. So the difference is 421 flops short of where it should be. That equates to a 3.21% shortage of aces on the flop. So if you can take a deuce and get the other person to take an ace the advantage is probably close to double that.

Conclusion:

If you are playing this prop with the deuce vs. ace your edge is around 6% every time one of those cards come. If you are seeing around 35 hands an hour, I would guess 25 go to a flop in a live game. I'd guess you see an average of 4 cards per flop. So you will see about 100 cards an hour. Of those about 15 will be an ace or deuce. So if you are betting 10 dollars a card your edge will be around 9 dollars an hour.

Link

2011-07-17T17:35:00.004-05:00

My first online interview was released this week on the Poker Phenoms website. It came out OK I guess. If the mood strikes you it can be seen in its entirety here:

http://www.pokerphenoms.com/poker-tv/

45 Days in Vegas

2011-07-10T00:49:00.006-05:00

Before I left for Vegas this year I had a game plan unlike any previous years (mostly added pressure on myself, seeing how things have changed since black Friday). I had a few goals in mind:

play tons of 5/10nl or tournaments or sit and goes or whatever I thought would be the most profitable hourly rate with reasonable bankroll management coming with somewhat limited cash
make X amount of dollars

I haven't done any of that really.

The trip can really be divided into two halves. The first half I spent most of my time playing 5/10/25 PLO cash games. Full ring live PLO isn't all that exciting. I figured I would have a decent hourly rate there, but never really realized all too much profit. I played 25/50/100 once and hit an ran for a nice 5k profit. I even played a 100/200 game one time where I chopped action and played a 20k pot with around 78% equity and chopped (it was against Ben Lamb, so I am surprised I got anything back). The game broke shortly after. I also played about 10 tournaments with one cash. Broke about even there. Pretty boring stuff.

The second half of my trip has revolved around blackjack. I am not sure how I am only getting into this game just now. It involves gambling and arithmetic and taking money from evil corporations and comes with freed drinks and cigars. This blog post has enough words already so I will break it down by the numbers:

Casinos that will no longer let me play blackjack: 20 (MGM owns a lot)

Hours played: ~42

Highest count seen on a double deck: 23 (resulted in taking insurance on the dealer's ace up for 7k in bets... she had blackjack)

Profits: ~27k

Batting average for taking insurance: 1.000

Equity in a perfect shoe: +20.00%

I ran the math below:

So as things stand now I am going to have to make the 10,250 chips I have left in the Main Event dance for me on Day 2 to hit my goal and finally shave my playoff beard:

PiMaster Supreme

2011-06-18T13:57:00.000-05:00

Vegas

2011-06-05T15:42:00.004-05:00

So I've been in Vegas for about a week now and things are pretty bleh. I am down a buy in in the cash games. I played a 1k and fizzled. I am catching a cold. Our house is a lemon. I have been getting to play a fair amount of golf, tennis and basketball though. Luckily there is plenty of time to turn things around. I could be playing better.

Online Dating

2011-05-10T14:43:00.004-05:00

I thought reeling in the ladies with the opener: "I play online poker for a living" was tough before April 15th. Forget about it now...

My Vegetable Garden

2011-05-04T08:50:00.002-05:00

Online Poker by the Numbers

2011-04-18T16:08:00.005-05:00

Odds the money on PS and FT is safe: 125:1 favorite

Odds the money on UB is safe: 45:1 favorite

Over/Under until you can cash out online: 208 days

Odds you can play a hand of poker on FT in the next year in the US: 60:1 dog

Odds UB will be the largest online poker site in a year: 3:2 dog

Over/Under online poker is legalized and regulated (if not nationally, at least in 5 states): 16 months

Odds I will ever see a tree fall down and knock over a telephone poll and take out the power for a neighborhood on its way down to the middle of the street whilst blockading me at a friends house to play board games by candlelight during a wild thunderstorm on the exact day the tree biggest poker sites are indited AGAIN: 1,000,000,000,000,000:1

Week

2011-04-11T13:16:00.002-05:00

My mom is in the hospital
My girlfriend just dumped me
Poker is going poorly
My car is falling apart
My life is falling apart

PTR Jacket

2011-04-02T13:57:00.002-05:00

Funny HH

2011-03-29T23:57:00.002-05:00

SlapAndSniff posts small blind [$5.00 USD].

profpanik posts big blind [$10.00 USD].

** Dealing down cards **

Dealt to gamblegambel [ Th 9d ]

BAHl0LLIKA folds

Ajuvaba folds

radar2016 folds

gamblegambel raises [$20.00 USD]

SlapAndSniff calls [$15.00 USD]

profpanik folds

** Dealing Flop ** [ 5h, Qs, 4d ]

SlapAndSniff checks

gamblegambel bets [$31.00 USD]

SlapAndSniff calls [$31.00 USD]

** Dealing Turn ** [ 2d ]

SlapAndSniff checks

gamblegambel bets [$76.00 USD]

SlapAndSniff calls [$76.00 USD]

** Dealing River ** [ 9c ]

SlapAndSniff checks

gamblegambel bets [$10.00 USD]

SlapAndSniff calls [$10.00 USD]

gamblegambel shows [Th, 9d ]

gamblegambel wins $281.00 USD from main pot

SlapAndSniff doesn't show [7s, 6s ]

Mario 3 in the Hallway

2011-03-16T16:04:00.002-05:00

Yesterday by the Numbers

2011-03-16T10:49:00.002-05:00

Minutes of poker played: 697.8

Vpip: 30.2%

Rake: $1885.44

Hands: 7302

Biggest pot: $23,299

Annual salary if I did this everyday breaking even and just lived off rake back: $185,810.11 (plus points)

Wizzrobe

2011-03-11T16:23:00.002-05:00

8-Bit Art

2011-03-10T23:01:00.003-05:00

A post-it note image of Link I made in my condo.

Life News

2011-02-24T02:05:00.003-05:00

I recently joined the Poker News strategy team. It's a pretty strong lineup of some very talented poker minds. This week I made two training videos at ten cent twenty five cent PLO shallow that will be up on the site soon. You can check it out here: http://strategy.pokernews.com/

Roller Coaster

2011-02-23T13:47:00.003-05:00

I noticed a slight pattern in the my past couple of relationships. It seems like my girlfriend feels and expresses extreme highs and lows while my perception of the emotional level of the relationship is rather even keel. I wonder sometimes if my emotional spectrum is horribly miscalibrated. Yesterday was the biggest come back in my poker career. I was playing 25/50 shallow PLO all day and at one point was stuck over 76k and managed to pull a profit for the day. I am finally back in black for the year. This was the biggest hand:

carter8080 posts small blind [$25.00 USD].

davin77 posts big blind [$50.00 USD].

** Dealing down cards **

Dealt to gamblegambel [ 4h Kd 3h Kc ]

ByTheBy folds

gamblegambel raises [$100.00 USD]

trex313 folds

Doorbread folds

carter8080 calls [$75.00 USD]

davin77 raises [$350.00 USD]

gamblegambel raises [$1200.00 USD]

carter8080 folds

davin77 calls [$900.00 USD]

** Dealing Flop ** [ 7h, 4s, 9h ]

davin77 checks

gamblegambel bets [$1755.00 USD]

davin77 raises [$7965.00 USD]

gamblegambel raises [$6338.35 USD]

davin77 calls [$128.35 USD]

gamblegambel shows [4h, Kd 3h Kc ]

davin77 shows [9d, 5c 7d 6s ]

** Dealing Turn ** [ 5s ]

** Dealing River ** [ 9c ]

davin77 wins $18883.70 USD from main pot

Wise Words from Jon Benjamin

2011-02-13T18:20:00.002-05:00

Graph

2011-02-09T14:46:00.002-05:00

HH's

2011-02-08T04:57:00.002-05:00

Two fun hands...

Seat 1: scope_life_99 ($1,000)

Seat 2: carter8080 ($4,234)

Seat 3: gamblegambel ($8,799)

Seat 4: fullflush24 ($1,490.50)

Seat 5: psychobenny ($3,825.50)

Seat 6: TheMasterJ33 ($2,000)

psychobenny posts the small blind of $25

TheMasterJ33 posts the big blind of $50

The button is in seat #4

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to gamblegambel [7s 4s 9c 3c]

scope_life_99 folds

carter8080 folds

gamblegambel has 15 seconds left to act

gamblegambel raises to $100

fullflush24 calls $100

psychobenny folds

TheMasterJ33 folds

*** FLOP *** [Kc 2s 3d]

gamblegambel checks

fullflush24 bets $150

gamblegambel calls $150

*** TURN *** [Kc 2s 3d] [Jc]

gamblegambel has 15 seconds left to act

gamblegambel checks

fullflush24 checks

*** RIVER *** [Kc 2s 3d Jc] [Th]

gamblegambel has 15 seconds left to act

gamblegambel bets $390

fullflush24 raises to $780

gamblegambel raises to $1170

fullflush24 has 15 seconds left to act

fullflush24 has requested TIME

fullflush24 folds

Uncalled bet of $2,135 returned to gamblegambel

gamblegambel mucks

gamblegambel wins the pot ($2,132)

Seat 1: gamblegambel ($2,902.50)

Seat 2: psychobenny ($10,796.50)

Seat 3: Van Marcus ($99,975)

Van Marcus posts the small blind of $25

gamblegambel posts the big blind of $50

The button is in seat #2

*** HOLE CARDS ***

Dealt to gamblegambel [9c 4c Qc Kc]

psychobenny folds

Van Marcus raises to $100

gamblegambel calls $50

*** FLOP *** [8c 8h Ad]

Van Marcus bets $100

gamblegambel raises to $350

Van Marcus raises to $750

gamblegambel has 15 seconds left to act

gamblegambel calls $400

*** TURN *** [8c 8h Ad] [2c]

Van Marcus has 15 seconds left to act

Van Marcus checks

gamblegambel has 15 seconds left to act

gamblegambel bets $351

Van Marcus folds

Uncalled bet of $351 returned to gamblegambel

gamblegambel mucks

gamblegambel wins the pot ($1,699)

Super Fun Game Time

2011-01-26T02:59:00.005-05:00

Game: Guess how much I weighed when I was born.

Rules: One guess per lifetime to be left in the comments of this post. Deadline of 96 hours from the time stamp below. Closest to the correct answer wins (going over allowed and repeat guesses will be ignored).

Prize: The gift package from PCA. It includes a backpack, lunch bag, t-shirts, towel, beach ball, sticker, hat, cards, and dealer button.

Lesson

2011-01-26T02:42:00.003-05:00

If there is anything to be learned, it is that one's professional performance is optimized when one's personal life is in order.

SIGH

2011-01-25T02:58:00.005-05:00

Whenever I seem to brag on this blog things just fall apart. In the past week I have managed to go from a nice tournament score and a great month online to being stuck on the year. I feel like the biggest thing holding me back from being a great poker player is the fact that I am Italian. I get too emotional over the game and spazz out way too often. I have to take a step back because one more week like this and I would be busto after taxes.

A New Year

2011-01-19T02:20:00.010-05:00

Thanks for all the votes peep. All the efforts resulted in me winning first place in the player of the year for high stakes omaha poll. It's a great way to wrap up my best year on the books thus far. I'll be sure to post pics of the jacket and give you a heads up if I end up making videos for drag the bar.

I have been down at the PCA for the past 11 days. It is pretty much my favorite trip of the year, mostly because it is the best place to bust out of a poker tournament. Rum drinks, lazy river and good company make for a deadly combo. I also made a little run at the title down there and finished 22nd for 75k busting with AQo<44.

On day 1 I called a UTG raise with 56s in MP from a young guy. Flop came out J45 and I called his c bet. Q on turn and he fired again. River was a 2 and he jammed me all in for about 28k into a 35k pot. I got a bit of a physical read on him and called rather quickly and he showed A9. That got me going for a bit.

On day 2 I made a super delayed min raise river bluff against a guy in a great spot and got him to make a fold. He said he would have called if I raised more. It was a really key pot.

On day 3 I got lucky in two all in pots against Faraz. We got in TT v KK and I chopped and then at the feature TV table I beat his AA with AQo HJ v Btn for about 25 bbs. I think both spots were pretty standard high five the dealer situations that ran into walls and sucked out.

On day 4 I actually ended with less chips than I started. I made one questionable river call with TT on a 99JJ and he had quad nines. I also maybe should have geared up a tad and made one or two more check raises and jams. Overall I didn't have much to work with and was happy with my game.

Day 5 I was all in the first hand I got dealt with AQ and Sam Stein made what I would consider a fishy call with 44 to my jam. He was getting 1.7:1 and was 33% to my range. It ran out with a wild one outter on the river.

I am pretty confident with where things are

heading.

NYE Fun Time

2011-01-02T02:34:00.002-05:00

NYE Music

2010-12-26T03:03:00.005-05:00

As always I have been devoting much of my time to browsing music blogs and getting jams for my new years party this year. Here are a few tracks that you may have not heard yet this year that I feel are a must if you are looking to get the party started:

Robyn - Indestructible (A-Trak Club Mix)

Girl Talk - Oh No

Lil Wayne - Swag Surfin

Rihanna - Only Girl (Mr. Larsson Dubstep Remix)

Eminem feat Rihanna - Love the way you lie (Sick boy remix)

By the way I am only one vote out of first place in the high stakes omaha player of the year race. Feel free to vote if you want to see me win - could make for some awesome super fun game time prizes wink wink.

HH

2010-12-15T02:26:00.002-05:00

davin77 posts the small blind of $25
citizenmax posts the big blind of $50
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to gamblegambel [Jh Ks Tc 9s]
bp513 folds
OnTheRize raises to $150
gamblegambel has 15 seconds left to act
gamblegambel raises to $525
TheMasterJ33 has 15 seconds left to act
TheMasterJ33 folds
davin77 folds
citizenmax folds
OnTheRize calls $375
*** FLOP *** [9h Qs 2h]
OnTheRize checks
gamblegambel has 15 seconds left to act
gamblegambel bets $1,125
OnTheRize has 15 seconds left to act
OnTheRize calls $1,125
*** TURN *** [9h Qs 2h] [7c]
OnTheRize checks
gamblegambel has 15 seconds left to act
gamblegambel bets $2,913
OnTheRize has 15 seconds left to act
OnTheRize calls $2,913
*** RIVER *** [9h Qs 2h 7c] [9d]
OnTheRize has 15 seconds left to act
OnTheRize bets $5,101, and is all in
gamblegambel has 15 seconds left to act
gamblegambel has requested TIME

Real tough river spot, still not sure what to do.

gamblegambel calls $5,101
*** SHOW DOWN ***
OnTheRize shows [6h Ah Ts 9c] three of a kind, Nines
gamblegambel mucks
OnTheRize wins the pot ($19,400) with three of a kind, Nines

Facebook

2010-12-12T15:39:00.004-05:00

I am not much of a panderer, but I may never have a year like this again for the rest of my poker career and it would mean a ton if I won high stakes omaha player of the year. If you have some spare time it would mean a ton if you could vote for me here: http://www.pokertableratings.com/fulltilt-player-search/gamblegambel#

thanks!

HH

2010-12-10T03:16:00.002-05:00

I really liked this hand today. There is a lot going on for some simple action.

$5000.00 USD PL Omaha - Friday, December 10, 12:15:34 ET 2010
Table Savin (6 max shallow) (Real Money)
Seat 4 is the button
Seat 3: Far Away Boy ( $9456.00 USD )
Seat 4: gamblegambel ( $2000.00 USD )
Seat 5: c.heap cheap ( $1950.00 USD )
Seat 6: electra ( $2222.00 USD )
cheap che.ap posts small blind [$25.00 USD].
electra posts big blind [$50.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to gamblegambel [ 8h 9d 8d Qh ]
Far Away Boy raises [$112.50 USD]
gamblegambel calls [$112.50 USD] I am not the biggest fan of flatting these hands to half pot opens, but I think he is pretty weak, so I ain't folding here.
cheap c.heap folds
electra calls [$62.50 USD]
** Dealing Flop ** [ 2s, Js, Ts ]
electra checks
Far Away Boy bets [$150.00 USD] I think in general people cbet these flops too much, plus I have decent equity against all none made flush hands. With the cards I have it is super unlikely he is drawing to straight too besides maybe an AKxx.
gamblegambel calls [$150.00 USD]
electra folds
** Dealing Turn ** [ As ]
Far Away Boy bets [$300.00 USD] Interesting turn here. It changes things a lot since he couldnt have flopped the nut flush and wasnt bluffing the magic card. It is pretty rare here to be betting a set for value since the big straight just got made and it just got tougher to have a flush with four spades out. Because these sort of hands slow down it makes much more sense for me to be flatting this bet than raising with flushies.
gamblegambel calls [$300.00 USD]
** Dealing River ** [ 3c ]
Far Away Boy checks
gamblegambel bets [$512.00 USD] Perfectly balanced and sized. The only way he could be expoiting this line is if he was on the 2618th level; like taking candy from a baby.
Far Away Boy folds
gamblegambel wins $1260.50 USD from main pot

The EV of Running a Red Light

2010-12-02T17:35:00.008-05:00

It kind of really pisses me off when I am driving home at 2am and I am sitting at a traffic light for 2 minutes when I can clearly see there isn't a car within three thousand feet. I usually end up just running the light, but I am kind of curious if it is a plus EV play. Besides a few minor intangibles, I believe the two factors to consider here is time lost/gained and money. For arguments sake I will not factor in the fun factor of running the light and the stress of talking to a police officer.

Option A - Obeying the law

I would guess the average time spent at an intersection at an uncensored traffic light at 2am on surface streets is around 40 seconds. I feel its safe to assume there is almost no opportunity cost of money you would be earning if you were home.

Option B - Running the light

Assuming you take a good 5 seconds to scan around and see no cars around, I'd say there is around a 1:300 chance of getting pulled over for running the light. Assumably one would be sober, not have any warrants, nothing illegal in the car etc... so the only money lost would be the ticket fine. My guess is 100 dollars. I would also guess it takes on average 12 minutes to get issued a ticket. Presumably there is also inflated insurance costs for getting lots of tickets. I'd set a value of around another 150 dollars in insurance premium hikes for getting caught once. So a little math:

12 minutes/300 + 5 second scan = 7.4 seconds lost

$(100+150)/300 = 71 cents in fines

Conclusion

So after some simple arithmetic it seems to come out that if you value 32.6 seconds of your late evening life more than 71 cents, you are a fish for waiting for the light to turn green.

Factoid

2010-11-23T12:57:00.002-05:00

I know it is most likely 99% hogwash, but my win rate the past few months has been ten times higher when I play with some candles lit nearby.

Wise Words from Churchill

2010-11-20T18:32:00.002-05:00

"Any man who is under 30 and is not a liberal has no heart; and any man who is over 30 and is not a conservative has no brains."

Checking It Twice

2010-11-19T03:38:00.005-05:00

I check PTR a couple times a day. I believe I am supposed to be top hat, but it doesn't seem to be updating the past few days for my page.

Funny story, I went out last weekend to this bar with a good friend of mine. We had a good amount to drink and the dance floor was getting pretty wild. There were these two girls who were dancing with each other right up front and some dude was all up in their face filming it with his phone and encouraging them to kiss etc. It had an obnoxiously bright light and everything. I approached and told him he was out of line and he shrugged me off. In my drunken state I went ahead and grabbed the phone out of his hand and tossed it across the bar. It was sorta hero epic.

P.S. He was black and I am lucky I suffered no bodily harm, he was super pissed.

Making the List

2010-11-11T02:47:00.007-05:00

Gamblegambel is currently 47 on the list of most winning online players according to table ratings all time; pretty cool. I have been playing about 10 hours a week of poker and 40 hours a week of Starcraft. Some thoughts why great Starcraft players make great poker players:

You Have to Stay Aggressive: There is a big advantage to being the first person to attack. It gives you more ways to win and lets you dictate the game flow. Those who are passive/turtles usually fail.

It's all about countering: Almost every play out there is exploitable. You need to know how to counter it properly and do the recon necessary to make a good guess what your opponent is doing. Information is king.

It takes a fire in your belly: You have to love it, dream about it, always want to play. As soon as you finish a game you have to want to play another. It takes a pretty sick competitive spirit to be wildly successful.

Replays, Research, History: All the best players look back to see why things did or didn't work. Sometimes you have to really review plays to know what makes them successful and what you can tweak to make it better.

Pattern Recognition: People tend to be creatures of habit. Once you really immerse yourself in the game you will develop a sixth sense for what is about to happen next and be able to predict plays before they happen and have the trap set waiting.

Bound by Positivity

2010-11-02T03:39:00.003-05:00

I used the rubber band that my asparagus came in to hold my money clip together, so now it says produce on my roll.

Good Reads by Me

2010-10-30T14:38:00.004-05:00

It seems like whenever I see a car doing something reckless on the road I notice it is all dinged up or missing a taillight.

Some Stuff

2010-10-21T00:04:00.004-05:00

I am loving Starcraft II.

It seems like everyone on Match.com is a Christian and everyone on OKcupid is an atheist.

I had my first outing with my "little" brother last Sunday and we went on a hike and saw a play at his church (I was the only white guy of the 200 person audience). It went really well.

I watch a good amount of poker and play a little.

Gambling on the golf course is the sweet to the salty of playing games on my computer at home.

My nearly all colts fantasy team has left me with a 2-4 record and somehow my rag tag assembly is a favorite to win on the bye week by yahoo's projected points.

I have blisters on both my thumbs from hitting 160 balls with my driver today. Two balls went over the back fence at the driving range, but I'm not sure how far they went. I'd guess 263. Shouldn't the net be further back?

The kickball team I am on hasn't lost a game [besides one forfeit] and will likely go to the playoffs in a few weeks.

The Decatur beer festival is always in my top 10 favorite days of the year.

Friday Lights Night

2010-10-16T00:47:00.001-05:00

OK; I had some drinks and did some stuff.

12:52

2010-10-09T23:52:00.002-05:00

I have been playing a lot of Starcraft II lately.

I recently signed up for this dating website and I was getting lots of responses and I was emailing back and forth with several ladies, but I had left out my profession. I went ahead and fixed it so my profile says I am a professional poker player and I haven't heard back from a lady since. I am pretty much convinced it is one of the worst jobs ever for meeting women.

I am getting pretty good at Starcarft II.

Hilarious HH

2010-10-08T17:05:00.003-05:00

Seat 3: ElMastermind ($906.50)
Seat 5: gamblegambel ($2,335)
Seat 6: 7coronas ($3,704.50)
ElMastermind posts the small blind of $25
gamblegambel posts the big blind of $50
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to gamblegambel [7s Qc 8s Ac]
7coronas calls $50
DONKEY_K1NG folds
ElMastermind raises to $200
gamblegambel raises to $350
7coronas folds
ElMastermind folds
Uncalled bet of $150 returned to gamblegambel
gamblegambel mucks
gamblegambel wins the pot ($450)

Op Ed

2010-09-30T22:39:00.002-05:00

2010-09-29T01:35:00.003-05:00

OK...

D.C. was great.

Our founding fathers knew what there were doing.

A.C. was gamblicious.

I spazzed out on day 2 with Ks4s on 3c7s9s for 60bb (lost to As3s).

N.Y.C. was fab

Fun city and even funner friends.

During the trip my computer died, which is a close second to one of the things I despise most in this world behind moving. It has been a pain in my rump to get windows up and running as I like it to play the poker cards.

The company of top notch friends is priceless.

My high water mark for the year continues to rise with each new day.

My dating life is pretty bland. I feel like I need to be more charming. How is charm even acquired? I feel like my energy is constantly directed at [nearly] unobtainable love. I am slow to let go of the past.

My dog is better than your dog.

Fantasy football is kinda fun.

I flew home first class (it was my first time). I tried to evaluate the worth:

Getting on and off the plane first: $11
The free lunch/dessert: $18
Hot towel: $1
The two mixed drinks: $16
The legroom/comfy chair: $65

Overall extra value over economy on 2 hour flight: ~$111

I believe it was around $230 dollars more for a one way flight home bought 5 days beforehand. Not the best value in the pampering store, but worth it once in a while if you have money to burn.

Goodnight,
Gamblegambel

Week

2010-09-12T22:02:00.012-05:00

The survival trip to the outer banks was a bit of a bust. We rented this bare bones cabin on this island that is a national forest. The beach was empty and quite pretty, but our crabbing and surf fishing efforts were rather fruitless. We never caught anything worth eating and went three days with just bananas and rice. The last day before we left we rented a boat, made mojitos, drank beer, and had a blast cruising around the sound with good friends.

I am now in DC staying with boomboom. It is nice to be back in a real city. I played the wcoop 500+30 thing this Sunday. Real interesting scratch off ticket that lasted 6 hours before I lost a coin flip. In a few days we will be driving up to Borgata for the WPT event; should be a nice change of pace. I am a bit homesick and look forward to eventually getting home and working on my golf game and the game of love. Hopefully there will be time for a visit to the lovely nyc before this trip draws to a close.

Love It

2010-09-06T03:01:00.004-05:00

Whenever my friend SFisch hears of another person's devastating bad beat he lets out a laugh just like this...

Change of Plans

2010-09-04T18:06:00.003-05:00

I recently decided to devote my life to proving that the law of conservation of energy is wrong, but I ultimately realized that once I figured out how to create and destroy energy there would be dire consequences, so I decided not to.

Thought

2010-09-02T14:40:00.004-05:00

I was looking up at a cloudless sky the other day and began to empathize with mother nature; some days I just don't feel like creating new clouds either.

2010-09-01T00:12:00.001-05:00

Rantish

2010-08-31T23:48:00.003-05:00

I am pretty obsessed with PTR these days. I do at least 25 searches a day when I play and I check my ranking pretty regularly. When I am playing poker sessions I refresh my holdem manager about every 3 minutes to see my profits. It is a bit OCD. I have only been doing about 15 hour weeks the past few months, but my wrist is still hurting a bit. I have two camping trips planned for this weekend and the next one. A mountain bike expedition this Friday and then a survival like fishing+rice trip to follow. Should be fun. Hopefully I will be able to fit a Borgata/NYC trip in before the month draws to a close. I am at my high water mark for the year/life and it feels nice to be running above expected.

Drawing

2010-08-29T23:49:00.001-05:00

Up

2010-08-27T01:42:00.001-05:00

I had my best day ever in poker yesterday and it feels great.

2010-08-24T23:57:00.003-05:00

When a video game becomes too easy and boring you do things to spice it up. You start at a higher level with less lives or whatever to make it challenging. Life is the same way. When things like money etc come too easily, you do things to spice it up. Try making a living while walking on your hands or making friends with a speech impediment. It's just a fact.

Torn

2010-08-23T22:53:00.008-05:00

Sometimes failing at online dating feels like getting rejected by 10,000 women at once. Some enjoy a nightcap to end the day, but I enjoy 5. Part of me thinks I may be developing a problem and the other part feels like this is the only way to enjoy life.

Friday

2010-08-21T01:20:00.004-05:00

So I had my interview today with the big brother foundation. I was recently nudged into volunteering there this week by a close friend. Hopefully the fact that I gamble for a living and have over 7 drinks a week won't inhibit me from being a positive influence in a young person's life. I feel like I could give some solid advice and be a really good mentor. I suspect being involved with this organization will be a win win situation. The past few days have been profitable on the poker tables. I have been thinking a lot about new years eve this week. It is my favorite holiday.

Cheers,
gamblegambel

Brain

2010-08-17T11:28:00.003-05:00

The other day I was thinking that the mind is the most amazing part of the human body. But then I thought to myself, look who is telling me this.

Works

2010-08-12T22:28:00.003-05:00

I have been doing some more art lately. Here is an inflatable sculpture I put out on the sidewalk and a piece I made from wire I bought at Home Depot (not sure if you can tell from these pics, but the end of the wire just barely levitates above the surface of the table)...

HH's

2010-08-11T02:50:00.003-05:00

Two nice donations during my voyage back to the high water mark...

M.ONTEIROZOR posts small blind [$5.00 USD].
SHOVEBOT posts big blind [$10.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to SHOVEBOT [ 7c 9c ]
W.EEWAISEU folds
H.ARDCORY3011 raises [$30.00 USD]
M.ONTEIROZOR folds
SHOVEBOT raises [$95.00 USD]
H.ARDCORY3011 calls [$75.00 USD]
** Dealing Flop ** [ 5c, Qs, 7s ]
SHOVEBOT checks
H.ARDCORY3011 bets [$87.50 USD]
SHOVEBOT calls [$87.50 USD]
** Dealing Turn ** [ Ac ]
SHOVEBOT bets [$255.00 USD]
H.ARDCORY3011 raises [$1482.00 USD]
SHOVEBOT calls [$1227.00 USD]
** Dealing River ** [ 4c ]
H.ARDCORY3011 shows [3d, 2d ]
SHOVEBOT shows [7c, 9c ]
SHOVEBOT wins $3352.00 USD from main pot

gamblegambel posts small blind [$25.00 USD].
N.egrodamus2 posts big blind [$50.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to gamblegambel [ 3s Ac ]
C.omeToButthead folds
a.palma folds
A.lGooohr folds
gamblegambel raises [$100.00 USD]
N.egrodamus2 calls [$75.00 USD]
** Dealing Flop ** [ As, 8s, 2d ]
gamblegambel bets [$150.00 USD]
N.egrodamus2 raises [$300.00 USD]
gamblegambel calls [$150.00 USD]
** Dealing Turn ** [ 3d ]
gamblegambel bets [$450.00 USD]
N.egrodamus2 raises [$1075.00 USD]
gamblegambel calls [$625.00 USD]
N.egrodamus2 shows [Jc, 6c ]
gamblegambel shows [3s, Ac ]
** Dealing River ** [ 7c ]
gamblegambel wins $2997.00 USD from main pot

Flash

2010-08-08T21:35:00.000-05:00

While I was showering this afternoon I felt a small bump on the side of my chest. For some reason the first thing that entered my mind was that I have cancer. The thoughts that immediately followed were disheartening. One would like to think given the unexpected news that your existence is greatly compromised that the proceeding mental images would be humbling and reflective.
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I think it is just a bug bite.

Monopoly

2010-08-03T10:02:00.004-05:00

My current obsession is Monopoly. You know things are reaching a high level when you think about it all day and dream about it all night. The past two weeks we have had a few games for money. It is unfortunate that it has a bit of a bad reputation, because with a few adjustments to the rules it can be an excellent board game and super exciting to gamble on. Here are some house rules we play by:

Every property costs double: We do this because the standard setup for the game has a thoughtless buy buy buy formula. With this you have to be more selective with your money and more things go to auction; makes the game more about resource management.

Unsold property goes to silent auction: Most people don't realize that properties that aren't bought are supposed to be auctioned off. Our twist is we do a silent auction. Things tend to go for their true value. Accessing this untold worth is a huge skill.

Railroad warps: If you own more than one railroad you can warp between the ones you own. This provides some more mobility and makes being a railroad tycoon a real threat.

Creative trading: We allow immunity, profit sharing, short and long term passes etc. It's the name of the game, sorta.

Free parking: We put just the tax and jail money in free parking. It doesn't get too out of hand, but gives the guy in last place some hope.

...plus a few other tiny rules...

HH

2010-07-27T08:18:00.003-05:00

I took a shot last night at a pretty juicy 200/400 PLO game. It ended up being my most profitable single day in poker I think. Here is the worst hand I believe I played...

gamblegambel posts small blind [$200.00 USD].
L.okoIsBack posts big blind [$400.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to gamblegambel [ 5d Js Qd Ad ]
s.brugby folds
gamblegambel raises [$1000.00 USD]
L.okoIsBack calls [$800.00 USD]
** Dealing Flop ** [ 6c, Qh, 9d ]
gamblegambel checks
L.okoIsBack checks I was actually going for a sorta loose check raise here
** Dealing Turn ** [ 2h ]
gamblegambel bets [$1775.00 USD]
L.okoIsBack raises [$7725.00 USD]
gamblegambel raises [$13025.00 USD] I had a hard time giving him credit for a 22xx hand and I figured he would have bet his big stuff on the flop so at most I put him on a combo draw or a Q2xx. Problem is I am dead to 222 and my gut said fold.
L.okoIsBack calls [$7075.00 USD]
gamblegambel shows [5d, Js Qd Ad ]
L.okoIsBack shows [2d, 5s 2s 4c ]
** Dealing River ** [ 9s ]
L.okoIsBack wins $31999.00 USD from main pot

How Many Women Are There in the City for Me?

2010-07-26T04:13:00.006-05:00

The population of urban Atlanta is 3,499,840

53% are female, 1,854,915

24% graduated from college, 445,179

17% are age twenty two-thirty one, 75,680

~50% are single, 37,840

~12% I'd find physically attractive, 4,540

~23% are relatively liberal politically and not too religious, 1,044

3500:1 seems like a needle in a haystack

Visualisation:Can you find the red dot?

Thoughts

2010-07-23T06:04:00.003-05:00

Sometimes I get this weird anxiety over the smallest tasks. I want to go to nyc, but I have trouble just buying the ticket online. I have to pay my real estate tax, but it takes me weeks just to write the check. I wait til I am out of clothes to do laundry and there are no more cups and plates to run the dishwasher. I can't distinguish procrastination from distaste from apprehension.