When I was first starting making some decent money in poker naturally I tried to envision my future as a professional gambler and any issues that would arise. Does this have any longevity? Where would I keep all my cash? Will my mother still love me? The last thing that I figured would be a big issue was jealousy. Nonetheless, ever since WSOP '06 it has been a tough roadblock for me. The deceiving factor here is that if one of my good friends went on to direct an award winning film I would be ecstatic; or if one of my friends went on to cure cancer I couldn't be happier for them; but if my poker friends crush the tables and make a killing while I am struggling, this is just too personal. The biggest issue that comes up isn't even a pure form of jealousy. For me what always seems to bog me down is that I see my poker friends doing well at higher limits and I begin to get frustrated with my pro
gress. I start to force it and make more moves to establish my worth. I over extend my bankroll to move up in limits faster. And I put this unnecessary pressure on myself to catch up, which in the long run only really hurts me.
When I was first starting making some decent money in poker naturally I tried to envision my future as a professional gambler and any issues that would arise. Does this have any longevity? Where would I keep all my cash? Will my mother still love me? The last thing that I figured would be a big issue was jealousy. Nonetheless, ever since WSOP '06 it has been a tough roadblock for me. The deceiving factor here is that if one of my good friends went on to direct an award winning film I would be ecstatic; or if one of my friends went on to cure cancer I couldn't be happier for them; but if my poker friends crush the tables and make a killing while I am struggling, this is just too personal. The biggest issue that comes up isn't even a pure form of jealousy. For me what always seems to bog me down is that I see my poker friends doing well at higher limits and I begin to get frustrated with my pro
gress. I start to force it and make more moves to establish my worth. I over extend my bankroll to move up in limits faster. And I put this unnecessary pressure on myself to catch up, which in the long run only really hurts me.
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I like your blog a lot. Have a look at this guy's comics, they might cheer you up.
http://stereotypist.livejournal.com/95987.html?page=4#comments
i meant this guy
haha, thanks, some pretty funny stuff on there - my fav was the tom cruise writing back his fan
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