You Know What It Is

It seems like most of my poker friends have hit the point in their gambling careers where they are beginning to cut way down on the hours they play and their passion to play online cash games. Whereas my adoration may not currently be at a peak, I still see poker hands when I close my eyes, I still dream about poker at night, and I still have an enormous drive to hit the tables. Maybe I feel as if I still have something to prove, or maybe I just enjoy the game a freakish amount, or maybe all this thought about retirement funds lately has motivated me. Anyway I look at it I feel a little sad; it's like being the kid in middle school who is still all excited about mastering Magic: The Gathering while everyone else has moved on to playing Nintendo 64.

It Ain't My Birthday But I Got My Name On the Cake

One month sober.
Not sure where my breaking point is.

Life Update

poker is a roller coaster
i have poison ivy all over
my new macbook pro destroys all other laptops
pt3 is tilting me
i enjoy blueberries
i have a top notch gf
i am in the skull dungeon [ zelda: link to the past ]

I Just Don't Think You Got It

Seat 2: PassTheGanja ($880.60)
Seat 5: GambleGambel ($1136.70)
GambleGambel posts the small blind of $2
Bule Gila posts the big blind of $4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
dealt to GambleGambel [Jc Js]
PassTheGanja raises to $14
YOUDONK88 folds
KIDO 25 folds
GambleGambel raises to $50
Bule Gila folds
PassTheGanja has 15 seconds left to act
PassTheGanja raises to $115
GambleGambel raises to $230
PassTheGanja calls $125
*** FLOP *** [3h Kc 3d]
GambleGambel bets $245
PassTheGanja raises to $650.60, and is all in
GambleGambel calls $415.60
PassTheGanja shows [6h 7h]
GambleGmabel shows [Jc Js]
*** TURN *** [3h Kc 3d] [9c]
***RIVER*** [3h Kc 3d] [9c] [2s]

*note the original HH was lost and this is a recreation within ~5% accuracy

Untitled

I Hate My Job #43

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Started out Hustling Ended up Balling

Undoubtedly the lowest point in my short lived career as a professional gambler came in the fall of 2007. At that point I had blown through 90% of my bankroll in just over a year and was forced to grind out 1/2NL (without having a grossly high risk of ruin). Thanks to a backing deal with 22/7 and some big hours and good fortune I was back to playing 10/20nl (albeit short stacking) with my own money again within a matter of a few months. This is pretty much unheard of without a monster tourney score or wild bankroll management. Since my return to the bigger games, it has been a roller coaster and a half. I've gone in and out of terrible game selection, sloppy bankroll management, and nonexistent tilt control. This evening I was again challenged with a tough decision. At 25/50nl on Poker Stars there was the biggest fish I've seen since sefat53 was going all in every other hand the day party poker died. The last thing I could afford to do right now is blow through 20k gambling with maniacs at big games after a shitty WSOP, but I couldn't live with myself as a gambler to sit idly by and short stack this game...


The lr: posts small blind $25
KKBigDawwg69: posts big blind $50
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to KKBigDawwg69 [Kc Kh]
M00nf1r3: folds
sa.mh3: folds
re.gia8: folds
kt.eu: folds
Po.kenoopy: folds
thoa.den: calls $50
Perfe.Set07: raises $150 to $200
The .l.i.ar: folds
KKBigDawwg69: raises $750 to $950
thorlan.d: calls $900
PeectSet..07: raises $8050 to $9000
KKBigDawwg69: calls $4050 and is all-in
trlad.en: raises $1081 to $10081 and is all-in
Perfe.ctSe7: calls $1081
*** FLOP *** [9h 5c 2d]
*** TURN *** [9h 5c 2d] [6d]
*** RIVER *** [9h 5c 2d 6d] [Kd]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
tho.rden: shows [Qd Qh] (a pair of Queens)
Pfec.tSet07: mucks hand
KKBigDawwg69: shows [Kc Kh] (three of a kind, Kings)
KKBigDawwg69 collected $15022 from main pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Seat 3: Per.fectt07 (button) mucked [2h Td]

today i woke up at 7pm and fell asleep at 10am - i have no idea what day of the week it is

In Decatur

I have been home for less than 12 hours and already everything seems to be coming together nicely. Poker is getting back on track, home cooked meals with me lady, and peace and quiet in the domicile. I decided not to play the wsop main event for the first time in my career as a poker player. I have a feeling everything is going to work out swimmingly.

joeswep posts the small blind of $10
gamblegambel posts the big blind of $20
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to gamblegambel [9h Qc]
balgawhe folds
Mr_an folds
SliNpnzU folds
josweetp raises to $60
gamblegambel calls $40
*** FLOP *** [4s Qh Ah]
joeyswep bets $120
gamblegambel has 15 seconds left to act
gamblegambel calls $120
*** TURN *** [4s Qh Ah] [Jd]
joeysetp checks
gamblegambel has 15 seconds left to act
gamblegambel checks
*** RIVER *** [4s Qh Ah Jd] [2c]
joeweetp bets $220
gamblegambel calls $220, and is all in
*** SHOW DOWN ***
joeswetp shows [6c 8c] Ace Queen high

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i am beginning to near on my personal worst ever perma life tilt
every morning i wake up i want to stab myself in the face with a fork
my gf arrives in three days and we head home together in six
i eagerly await both - my life here sucks